Is this real??

Can I please wake up from this awful nightmare?? When I look at pictures it does not seem real yet I live through this torture everyday! I can't believe this is really all true. My heart breaks everyday because I miss my sweet mom so much! I miss her smile, I miss talking to her, I miss watching her with Braxton, I miss going shopping with her. She was the best mom and grandma anyone could ask for. She was so selfless, she always put us before herself. And would drop everything if I needed help. I miss her being the life of the party. With the holidays coming up, well they are pretty much going to suck without her. They definately wont be the same. Somedays I feel totally lost without her. She is an amazing person who I look up to so much. I am trying to be a better, more selfless person and I hope I can someday be half the person she is. I miss you so much mom, I wish you could come back! I love you and think of you everyday!

Over you by Miranda Lambert

This is one of Miranda Lambert's new songs, She and her husband Blake Shelton wrote it. Blake's brother was killed in a car accident when Blake was young. It reminds me of how I feel with my sweet mom. Here are the lyrics and the song....

Wheather man said it's gonna snow,
By now I should be used to the cold.
Mid-February shouldn't be so scary,
It was only December
I remember the presents, the tree, you and me.

But you went away,
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be ok,
But I'm not ever going to get over you.

Living alone, here in this place,
I think of you, and I'm not afraid.
Your favorite records make me feel better
Cause you sing along with every song.
I know you didn't mean to give them to me

But you went away,
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be ok,
But I'm not ever going to get over you.

It really sinks in, you know,
when I see it in stone.

Cause you went away,
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be ok,
But I'm not ever going to get over you.

Halloween

Braxton dressed up as Buzz Lightyear for Halloween!! He was so cute and loved his costume! We took him trick-or-treating to the business's in Morgan then just to family's houses! He was on a total sugar high!! He would tell me- "mom, I batman" and I would say no you are Buzz! and he would say "Oh I Buzz!" he was so funny. He hadn't eaten any dinner so I put his candy where he couldn't reach it in the car and he told me- "mom, you maka me sad!" It made me feel bad but he had to have dinner first!!

Happy Birthday Keaton!

October 14, Keaton turned 11!!! I had to work in the morning of Keaton's birthday but after work I took him some suckers for his school class, he hadn't gone to lunch yet so I checked him out of school for his lunch hour and took him to Steph's for his birthday lunch!! After school a few friends came over and my dad and I took them to Classic Skating for a few hours then back to our house for pizza and ice cream cake-which he requested!! :) I hope he had a fun birthday!!!

Happy 50th Birthday Dad!!!!

On October 8th my dad turned the big 5-0!!! We had a birthday party for him at my grandma wilson's house. We had to give him a hard time!! I know it was a hard day for him but I hope he had a great day! Us kids and my grandma and grandpa Wilson gave him an ipod, I loaded some music and pictures for him before we gave it to him! I hope he likes it and uses it!!! We love you dad!! Thanks for all you do for us!